How Many Tears?

With t-minus 10 days left.. I have opened the flood gate and am hoping I wont be a complete mess by the time I leave.. my eyes are already squinty enough and tear filled, poofy eyes wont help my image or my eye sight! But I think it's going to be inevitable...

I had my first goodbye this week with my Korean friend. I cried and it was contagious. Me crying with 2 Koreans and a white girl... doesn't sound like me huh!? They gave me a korean/english book called "Courage," some very Korean stickers and post-it notes, and a pair of really cute earrings. They are so sweet and I told them they were making me "more girly than I ever thought I could be"!

I tried to go to Dr. Fish one last time, but it closed :( It was a sad realization and a sign my time has come to an end.

I just hung out w/ birth father and Ju Hee. Only 1 bottle of soju this time so he was more pleasant. I am going to miss them so much. I held back the tears this time, but our last meeting is going to be a doozie I think..

My last 10 days consist of 4 meetings w/ brother, 2 w/ birth mother, 1 w/ birth father and Ju Hee, 1 w/ Betsy and Gary, 1 w/ my Korean friend Min Jeong, 1 w/ my Korean friend Hye Jin, a theater performance, a work party, a foreigner friends’ party, sad goodbyes, packing, cleaning, and a manicure.

This whole leaving thing is going to be harder than I thought...however, after all the goodbyes I am going to do, I cannot wait to throw out some long awaited "hello's" to my American family and friends.

Side Note: "Meghan Teacher is pretty. Meghan Teacher is pretty and ugly." "Why am I ugly?" "Meghan Teacher hair is pretty but Meghan Teacher is ugly because peach skin is pretty and your skin is DAAARRRKKK." -------- says the 6 year old Korean Boy.

Thank you Korean boy for adding to my already diminishing self-esteem! haha.. and shame on you Korea for instilling such crap into the innocent little minds of your youth!